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Austin,  I am slowly, very slowly trying to let go.  I know that you are in the best place ever with the best people. I just miss you so much.Your memory is everywhere I go and in eveerything that I do.  I think about you the most when I am alone. Grandmama bought the baseball team new jerseys this year and they havae a # 3 on the back below the brand emblem.  They clinched a berth in the playoffs the first day that they wore the jerseys.  I was so proud of them and of you. I don't think that I told you that enough. I do remember Dad and I talking the summer before you left about how much you had grown up and how different you were.  We were both very proud of you then.  Little did we know that the Lord wad preparing you for your journey home, and us to let you begin. Josh is practicing withnthe Troy baseball team now and living at home.  He plans to move to Troy this summer. He is really big.  Definitely not 185lbs. anymore.  He has matured but he has taken on so many of your personality quirks.. It's like you are living through him and we get to see that every day.  Cic is beautiful!!!  She is strong willed and very strong minded, like you.  Ciara was voted the cheerleader captain this week.  Dad told her that she had accomplished everything now, and she said her goal was to keep it his time.  Uncle Nip is there with you now. He came on my birthday last year. He always loved you and Josh and loved to watch you play ball.  He was a pretty awesome softball player too.  You should be able to get up an interesting game in Heaven.  Coach Hulsey came to watch the baseball game at ZC on Thursday.  He was watching John Wayne, Joey, and Harry. We're excited that your scholarship is going to someone from Zion Chapel.  That's what we always wanted.  I love you Austin Kyle and my heart aches.  Always, Mom 

hey goober!

 

merry christmas!  austin i miss you so much.  we lit a candle for you tonight just like last year at christmas.  it's still so weird that you're gone.  i bet you're having a blast up there huh?  everyone misses you sooo much.  i got another tattoo a few weeks ago, it's for me, sam, jeci, ashley, and haley.  it's pretty cool, i think you would like it.    i'm gonna drive down and see josh on saturday.  i can't wait, i haven't seen him in so long.  i miss him and i know he misses you so much.  well i know i didn't talk much but i'll write you again soon k.  i love you and miss you so very much.  keep looking out for all of us. i love you!

Merry Christmas Austin.  It must be Christmas everyday in Heaven.  We miss you so much.  Josh moved back home yesterday.  He'll be in Troy this semester.

I tell everybody that he missed his mom, that's why he came home.  He just looks at me and says "sure Mom".  I moved your clothes to the closet in your room.  That was very hard to do, even though I know that it was time and it will probably make it easier for Josh to stay in his room now.  It's hard enough not having you here without looking at your clothes hanging in the closet.  This is the third Christmas without you, Bubba, and it is not any easier.  Things are just not right without our 3 children to look after and care for.  We know that you look over all of us.  Ciara and Josh need to be able to talk to you sometimes, just to share.  I'm pretty sure that C does but I don't know about Josh.  He has some very close friends in Troy and Auburn and I know that they help some, but it's not the same.  We hope that C and Josh will get even closer now that he is back home. We don't dwell on you being gone, but we really miss you.  Loving you forever,  Merry Christmas Austin, Mom

Hey Mister Austin Kyle!

It's almost Christmas, again!  I was just thinking about you and wanted to stop by and say hey!  Hope you're doing wonderful, but I know that you are!  Do us all a favor and ask God for some Christmas weather!! It was like 80 degrees here yesterday!  Felt just like baseball weather!!,  but I guess it's not really different from last year... Shea and I were laying out on the beach last year two days before Christmas! haha! I'm so bored at work... We have finals this week and I just took my last one!! Most of the time when I'm bored at work I come to your page and I read all the candles and memories and I just sit and cry... I miss you... so does everyone else... terribly! Like it cant even be comprehended how much you are loved and missed!!  It just doesnt seem real that it has been two whole years since you've been gone!... and it still doesnt seem real! I wish it werent! But like your mom said... everyone just deals with the loss of you in a different way.  Speaking of your mom.... she told you about the tatoo Jamey got in memory of you... It is really cooL! You'd love it! He's working at Sikorsky now... He and Seth were carpooling together for the past few months, but Jamey got moved to second shift, and so they had to stop.  Anyways mister! I guess I'm gonna run... I'll talk to you sometime soon! Keep looking out for all of us... and keep smiling... Cant wait to see you! Love you very much and miss you terribly!

XOXO

 

Ciara would say that I had a retarded moment...I signed in but didn't leave a message.  It's 2 days til Thanksgiving and 6 days til my birthday..I miss you so much.  There's so much going on down here..Uncle Nip is really sick with cancer and Pawpaw is having a really hard time..they are very close.  It's hard to watch him get sicker and sicker, and the news is not good. He looks just like Daddy Jack with his bald head.  Good news...hopefully Josh will be home in December and back at Troy soon.  It's really hard him being so far away from home too.  He and Ciara don't get to spend much time together anymore.  Maybe that will change soon. We have a new preacher.his name is Donald Ash, and he's a trip!  He has black spikey hair and he's very straight-forward. We like him very much.  You can feel the Lord in church again and that's wonderful.  He came to the basketball game in New Brockton last night and to the Troy game tonight.  Hope he's there for a long time. Josh just called and he's on his way home.  It's good to have him here...wish you were too.  Love you forever, waiting to se you again, Mom

Austin Kyle,

i couldn't stop thinking about you yesterday, i went and sat at your church and i asked you to please show me something or anything to let me know you were thinking about me too. so i drove by your house, and then drove by where you wrecked. I got out and sat down and cried because the last part of your life we had no contact and i never got to really say half the things i wanted to. But i got ready to leave and looked around i looked down and saw a penny! And then i knew you were thinking about me too, this might seem stupid to everyone else, i know. But all i could think about was how you tried for weeks to teach me how to hit those signs with the pennies while driving and i could never do it. But when i left the first sign i was i saw i flicked that penny just like i remember watching you do and i hit the sign after all the millions of times i tried.

thank you, i love you, and miss you like crazy.

Austin Kyle....I miss you more than anyone can imagine.  Sharing things without you here is hard, eventhough I know that you are always with us,forever in our hearts.  Ciara and the juniors rolled houses the night before the bonfire..made some of the seniors mad, but who cares. This is her memory, not theirs.  Anyway, the night that we were gone to play in the volleyball sub-state game, they rolled ours really good. They used the good tissue and it was really easy to clean up.They'll never learn.  Her class came over here after the homecoming game to eat, hang out, and sit around our own bonfire.  Dad and I decided that they were a really good group of kids. They sat around the fire and talked until after midnight. One of the new coaches came too, Lucas Davis.  He's from Samson.  This is his 2nd year at ZC and I try to take care of him, keep him out of trouble, just like I did you.  It's hard, but so far it's working.  You'll never guess what his high school number was in football and baseball, #3. Imagine that.  You would have liked him. Ya'll would have been fast buddies, I think.  I love you and I thinkof you everyday.  Missing you terribly, Mom

Austin Kyle, I really miss you. I need to talk to you so bad sometimes. It still feels unreal to me that you're REALLY gone. I cant wait to see you again. You'd be so proud of me. At the beginning of school this year I had a rough time. I got cheerleader captain and the seniors (and their mommies) flipped out and quit... Then somehow got back on the squad... Still not quite sure how that happened. But I was the bigger person and just let it go. I needed you so much though. It was tough but hey, they wont be here next year! {Thank God!} Mrs. Watson, my best friend now, understands me so well. I can just talk to her like I did to you and she gets me...like you did. Jacob gets me as well. Jacob and I have been dating for a whole year now. He treats me just so good. You would be happy for me. And I know you are. It still kills me that you'll never get to be at my high school or college graduation or even my wedding. But you will be able to see me. I'll never forget that song, "There's holes in the floor of heaven" and every time it rains...I think of you. I still "see" you all the time too. Everything happens for a reason though, right? Anywho, keep watching over me! Save a spot for me in heaven kay? LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH!

Austin, I can not believe that you have been gone for two years.  We miss you sooooo much.  Josh is now in Carrollton, Georgia.  He'll play ball there this spring.  We talk about you all the time...and we miss you unbelievably.  Ciara really misses you and needs to talk to you so much sometimes.  Our memories are so precious, Austin...we can't wait to make new memories with you.  Loving you and missing you more than you can imagine.  Love, Mom

Austin Kyle, where do I begin? I miss you more than anything. I never knew how much we were alike until like October 2004. We became SOOO close the months before you died. You were my BEST friend. I trusted you so much & you always knew EXACTLY what to say or do to bring me up if I was feeling down. So many people miss you and need you. Thank you for not letting me worry about what everyone else thinks. You have made me who I am today. and I thank you so much for that. So many people tell me all the time that I am just like you now. Almost as if you were living through me... Torie wrecked in Feb. and almost died. It scared us all really bad. I didnt want to lose another best friend. She said that she was fine tho, because you were with her the whole time, holding her hand and telling her that it was all going to be ok. Amberli talks about you all the time. She asks when you're coming back and when she's going to see you. She told me the other day that you were in heaven and for me not to worry. It breaks my heart to hear her talk about you as if you were sitting right beside her. Christian told Mrs Tammy that he knew how you wrecked...that you dropped something and leaned down to get it. I talk to you when I'm driving somewhere alone. I know you hear me. You're always sitting right there in the passenger seat. I dream about you from time to time. I still sleep with your jersey every night. Well, as you know, I date Jacob now. He gave me a promise ring in March. Austin, I love him so much. I'm just so scared of getting close to anyone anymore. Because you and I were SO close. I dont want to hurt like that again. But I know it was worth it. For the longest time, I wanted to hate Josh. Because I thought that if I hated him, that it wouldnt hurt if anything happened to him. But I soon realized that if I hadn't been so close to you... I might be who I am today. I see you everywhere. I've learned that life is too short, grudges are a waste of perfect happiness, to laugh when I can, apologize when I should, and let go of what I cant change, to love deeply and forgive quickly, to take chances, give everything, and have no regrets. Life is too short to be unhappy, I have to take the good with the bad, smile when I'm sad, love what I got, and ALWAYS remember what I had. To always forgive but never forget, to learn from my mistakes but never regret. I've learned that people change and things go wrong but life goes on... I cant wait to see your face again. I love you and miss you so much... Keep watching over me...

Austin,  This Saturday we will award the first Austin Kyle Smith Scholarship Award.  You would like this guy...I think that you knew him.. I'm really not sure.  He was on the ABBCA team with Josh.  He is a good person and ball player.  We really like him and he has been a true friend to Josh. We play LBW on Saturday so that means that J.J. will be there.  We don't get to see him much, but he's still pretty special to us.  I will never forget the summer that ya'll played with Russ and we went to Albany.  The two of you were aggravating each other walking side by side into the stadium with #4 and #5 on your jerseys, and it hit me you were so much alike.  Always smiling and ALWAYS up to something.  I told people when you died that J.J. was your black twin.  I m iss you so much Austin...it's so hard sometimes not having you here with us or on the field with Josh.  It hurts so bad.  I can't wait to see you again, sweetheart.  Loving you forever, Mom

We miss you so much..everyday there is something that reminds us of you, or something you would have thought was funny.  I have wished so many times that I had your outlook on life, that way things people say would not get on my last nerve the way that they do.  You were always smiling and enjoying life and that's the way that you are remembered by most everyone...the ones who count anyway.  I love you sooooooo much Austin and Dad and I miss you terribly.  Jamey White has the neatest tattoo in your memory..you would like it lots.  He showed it to Ciara right after he got it..before anyone else..they are very close now.  She also has a PROMISE RING from Jacob.  Dad has a cute newspaper clipping about what you should know before you date my daughter..he plans to give it to him the next time he comes over.  He made Ciara read it and she wanted to know if he was really going to show it to him...of course he said YES.  I miss having three achildren in my house, Austin, I miss you so much.. Sometimes when Josh calls, if I'm not in the den where the phones have caller I.D., he sounds just like you and I have to wait a minute before I talk to him. I see you in the catcher's outfit when he pitches cause you were the only one whoever caught for him.  It should be you on the field with him.  I miss you so much...Loving you forever and a day....Mom

I'll never forget the 10 years I was blessed to have you in my life.  You were everyones best friend and there wasn't a soul who didn't know that smile.  You truly are an angel giving us that same smile everyday as you watch over all of us.  We will have an amazing homecoming when we are all together again.  We love and miss you so much.  We will never forget....

Hey Austin!  I was thnking about you and wanted to leave something on your page.   I'm going to ZIon tonight and i'm staying with joshua!  Sometimes Josh will say something and it sounds just like something you would say, it's weird.  I'm sure we will have a good time tonight.  Everyone misses you so much.  I can't believe C is 16, i'm sure she is going to be just as wild (if not more) as you were. :)  She cracks me up!  It's still so strange that you aren't here.  Sometimes i'll just be sitting around and i'll think gosh i wish Austin were here for me to talk to.  YOu were always so great at being there and just listening to me.  I always felt understood when i was with you.  I miss feeling that comfortable with another person.  Well i'm gonna go i just wanted you to know that i love you so much and i can't wait to see you again some day.  Keep watching over everyone.  I love you and miss you.  ~Dudi~

Austin, Cici turned 16 Monday and got her drivers license on Tuesday.  I think she was more excited than you and Josh together.  She said that it really wasn't bad because she felt like she wasn't alone in the car.  She felt like someone was with her.  Dad and I told her that she wasn't alone, ever, that you would always be with her.  Jackie gave her a very special gift, the ring that you gave her for Christmas.  C was so excited.  Jackie told her that she wanted her to know how special that she was and how much she meant to her.  Wish that you could have been here.  Loving you forever, Mom

Austin,  I can't imagine how special your Christmas has been today.  Being in heaven with all those who have gone before you and being with Jesus has to be amazing!  I still look for you, especially when I'm alone. We all miss you so much, but we all deal with you being gone in different ways.  I know that you are alright, I just miss you unbelieveably.  Be with Josh and Ciara.  I know that they wish you were here to talk to, or just to argue with.  It's a very different world without you sweetheart.  We all love and miss you terribly.  Can't wait to see that beautiful smile again.  Loving you forever. Mom 

Austin!

 

I was just thinking about you and wanted to write something on your page.  I can't believe christmas is almost here.   I hung an ordament for you and my mom has a candle for you that we will light the same as last christmas.  I miss you so much.  It's so strange that you aren't here with us.  Thank you for having such an impact on my life.  There isn't a day that goes by that i don't think of you and wish you were here.  I miss having you to talk to and i miss your silly emails and text messages so much.  You will always be my best friend and i am so thankful that i had you in my life for so long.  Look over your family, they miss you so much.  I know you are having a blast up there in heaven and you are smiling down on everyone.  I'm sure your christmas up there will be amazing.  I love you and i can't wait to see you again one day.  Missing you. Dudi!

Austina.....

  I dont know where to begin man.. O yeah o yeah how about at Nessa crib.. Man there is no telling how many times we ate a bag a pop corn and watched are a so fav show friends.. O and wait about that time i was going to play some ballw ith you guys and that totally awsome head band i was rockin.. Austin I always used to crack up when you would call me skankara... What about that one. Man i have so many The easter egg hunt yeah i found the golden egg... Boy you were running around like a crazy person trying to find the golden egg.. It was right beside the road.. HA HA .. Well SKIN.. I love you and Miss you dearly.. Ok wait one more memory My first day at The big OLE Zc.. I do recall i was drug out of class by MRS. Hurbert just to meet the Smith boys Because they have a sister named Ceiara Smith..

    Peace out..

    I love you..

Ceiara ( skankara)

Hey.  You've been on my mind like constantly lately.......i went by the grave today, then i went by and saw your mom.  Gosh Austin everyone misses you so much.  I wish you were here so i could talk to you, you always understood everything so well and you could always find a way to make me feel safe and comfortable.  I heard "the song" today on my way to Zion and i thought of you and couldn't help but to smile.  It felt almost like you were right there beside me with that goofy grin and singing.  I miss you so much, keeping smiling down on everyone.  I love you mister man!

There's so much that I wish that I could tell you.  Tomorrow is my birthday and you know how special birthdays are to me.  Last year we were coming back from the mountains on my birthday and all I could do was cry.  I miss you so much, Austin.  I know that you are incredibly happy in heaven, but our family is just not right without

 you.  We try so very hard, but your absence is felt so very strongly.  Smile on us sweetheart, and let us know that you are forever with us in our hearts and our memories.  Can't wait to see you again.  Loving you forever, Mom.

HELLO DEAR!  JUST WANTED TO TELL YA HAPPY THANKSGIVING. I WISH YOU WERE HERE SO BAD.  I MISS YOU SO MUCH AUSTIN.  I THINK ABOUT YOU ALL THE TIME AND SEE YOUR GOOFY SMILE.  THANK YOU FOR TEACHING ME SO MUCH.  I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU AUSTIN KYLE SMITH.

Hey Austin! It's me again! I was tryin to go to sleep, but all I could think about was you! Tomorrow is Thanksgiving and I just wanted to Thank you for being such an amazing person and friend! I miss you so so much! Last night Nessa and Haley came down from Huntsville and spent the night with me! We had a blast, the only thing that would've made it better is if you would have been here with us! We talked about you and that amazing smile! I just wish that you could come back to all of us! You are missed by so many people! I can't wait for the day that we are all back together!I love you and there isn't a day that goes by that I dont think of you! I miss you!

Austin, I love you and I  miss you so much.  There's not a day goes by that I don't think of you.  You are always here with me, you always will be.  I didn't know how special you were until you were no longer with me, but I guess that's how it is usually, isn't it?  I do know that you were very loved by your family and by your many friends.  You can't begin to realize the impact that your life had on soooo many people, young and old.  Remember that I used to tell you and  Josh that someone was always looking at you and how you handled the things that came your way.  Cici says that you knew that the Lord was ready for you, that you knew.. that's why you made sure that Miss Jodi knew that you and the Lord were friends and not to worry about you.  Heath told us the story of how you shared your faith with him at baseball practice the day that you died.  You not being here is the hardest thing that I have ever had to face.  I don't know that I have really faced it yet.  I cry all the time, and

I look for you everywhere, knowing that I won't find you. Not in this lifetime anyway.  One of my favorite memories of you is of course when you said "Mom" first and when you used to call Josh "JOSHEEE" when you were playing together.  The time that Ciara had a really bad day with her boyfriend and you took her to Dothan shopping made you her hero forever! I still say Josh and Austin all the time, and wonder when I'm picking out stuff for Josh which one you would rather have. I think at night, "well it's about time for Josh and Austin to be home", and then I remember.  We still get out five plates for supper, then remember.  Honey, you were and are so loved and missed.  I can't wait to see ayour smile again and tell you face to face.  I know that He hols you in His hands and loving arms until it's time to be together again.  I thank Him for the years, months, weeks, days, hours, minutes, and seconds that He gave us to be with you.   Loving you forever, Mom