Austin Kyle Smith - Online Memorial Website

Austin,

I can't believe it has been 6 years ago today that heaven gained another angel.  You are missed and loved by so many.  I know you are happier than ever in heaven, but I so wish you were still here with us on Earth.  I still see your beautiful smile when I think of you!  That's usually what everyone remembers!! I love you, AKS, and I am anxiously awaiting the day that I will see your face again!!

Yea I knw your getting a good laugh at me tryin to write u since this is the 3rd time I've started over. Anyways I was saying that I'm getting married next april if u can believe that haha. I'm gonna invite your parents josh and ciara cus I would really love to see them. Well I'm gonna go before I send this one too and still not be finished typing. I love ya and miss u bro and I knw your always with me when things get tough jus like today.

Ok bro its been a while. You are weighing on me heavy today. I woke up this morning thinkin about my life and that I'm struggling to be happy and I didn't knw why. But u popped into my head and it brought a huge smile to my face and lifted a load off my chest. I miss you man and I wish we could have spent more time with each other. I knw it would have been a trip, prob get into some trouble on the way. I'm getting

Ok bro

you have been on my mind constantly lately! i've had a few good crys lately that always end with a little smile b/c i think about your face and how you would look at me and tell me not to cry and that everything will be ok.  i wish you were here to just give me a big bear hug but i know that you're always watching over me.  i miss you so much austin!  i will be getting ready for another deployment soon but other than that not much is new with me these days, i just try to keep myself busy with work.  I kept your picture with me the whole time i was deployed last year and i will do the same for this one.  I will be taking leave soon and i plan to visit your mom when i do.  its been way too long since i've been home so it will great to see everyone.  I will write you again soon goober! I love you and miss you!

Austin Kyle...

     I'm having what we call "an Austin day" around the Smith house... I woke up with you on my mind andcan't stop thinking about you and all the memories we shared. We took your truck to the beach after graduation, all I could think about was when we went after your graduation and rode the strip. Kirsten and I were with you and you didnt care not one bit. You were still you. I love you so much. Sometimes when I'm alone at Mom and Dad's I think I see your shadow or hear your voice... like you're just messing with me and aggrevating me as usual! I think about you every day and some days are harder than others. I got a tattoo of a cross with a 3 in the center on my back this past summer. Some days someone can ask me what the 3 means and I can talk about you like nothing ever happened and some days it's really hard... I know you're with me every day and please continue to watch over me. I need you now more than ever. Love you so much. I know that your smile lights the world from above.

Hello love!  You have been on my mind so much lately and i wanted to write you a few words.  I miss you much.  Sometimes i will sit and think about how you use to call me everynight just to talk for a few minutes before i went to bed. you would always call when i was in huntsville visiting my family, i always looked forward to my phone ringing because i knew it would be you.  or when we would stay awake until 3 in the morning texting each other and then we would have to get up for school the next day. haha. we had a lot of good times together and i miss it so much.  you always made everything so much better austin!  i miss your silly smile and you always finding something to pick on me about. you're the best!  i've been back from iraq for a few months now and it's great being back. it is going to take some time to get use to everything again but i am glad to be back.  me, sam, jeci, and mom sat around the other day and talked about you for hours.  we all had different stories to share about you and it was really nice.  everyone misses you so much.  well i will write again soon ok.  i love you and miss you so much. i love you!

What's up punk? I'm just sitting here watching Sportscenter and it's showing the World Series highlights. I couldn't help but think of you and Josh. I miss those times we had together. Some a little crazier than others and we should probably keep between me, you, and Josh. Nessa's been back from Iraq for a while now. She talks about you all the time. Just the other night me, nessa, jeci, and mom were all sitting in the kitchen and talking about you. I wish you could have came up here and lived with me. We would of had so much fun. I'm planning on taking a trip down to lower Alabama to visit your folks soon. I miss them so much. Well bud I'm gonna stop talking now but I just wanted to stop by and share some words with you. I love you and miss you always. Your older brother, Sam.

Hey Austin!! Just thinking about you today. Miss you so much! I often wonder where you'd be today... Or better, where you'd be playing ball?! Almost four years without you... Still seems like yesterday. Miss you, love you!

Ciara starts to school tomorrow, doll.  How about helping her find the right classrooms since you never did find the right ones your first day of college.  I think that she's ready, but I still think that she might be a little overwhelmed.  Troy is much bigger than ZC and Josh won't be there to help her out.  Her frienda will be just as lost as she will so they won't be any help either.  Guide her as  much as you can.  Watch out for her...she's pretty mature, but she still needs help now and then.  We miss you baby.  Tuesday will be 4 years.  I never thought that I would make it this long, bit with God's help, I have.  I know that there is a purpose in everything, and when I get to heaven, then it won't matter,cause I'll be with you then.  I love you....Mom

Hey Doll,  I miss you and see a reminder of you all the time.  This afternoon we are having a graduation party for Ciara.  I can't believe that she is going to be finished with high achool so soon.  I t seems like yesterday that she started to kindergarten, saying, "Mom, you don't have to come in with me, I know where my room is."  I still have the picture of the three of you standing outside at the corner of the house, on yours and Josh's first day of kindergarten.  I know that she is ready for after high school, but I don't know if I am really ready or not.  We bought a trailer for her in Hunter's Mountain, not too far from Josh.  He is going to be her protector in Troy.  He and her other big brother, Lucas.  I wish you could be there for her too, although you are always with her, aren't you baby?  We love you and miss you soooo much. Can't wait to see you again.  Loving you forever, Mom

Hey Austin!!  Just wanted to stop by... I was just thinking about you as I do very often! Can't wait to see you! Love you and miss you everyday!!

Austin Kyle,

Ciara is 18 now and so grown up and beautiful.  You would be very protective of her now.  She plans to go to Troy, thank goodness.  Josh plans to "guide" her.  We'll see how that goes. 

Josh has a girl-friend that really matches him.  She is quite beautiful and smart, even though she likes your brother!!!! Ha-ha.  He seems to be quite taken with her.  She's very down to earth, no pretense about her.  Josh says that she tells him the truth, even when she knows he won't like it.  I knew when he found THE one, she would catch him off guard, and I think that Tara has.  It's funny to watch them together and to hear him talk about her.  She loves to hunt and be outside.  We like her.

We think of you often and miss you so much.  There is always something missing..but we know where you are and how you are, so we have comfort in that faith.  Loving you forever,  Mom

Today is my birthday Bubba and you know how I am about birthdays.  Dad had to work today, but Josh and Ciara were with me all day.  The only thing that would have made it better would have been to have you here with me too.  I miss you so much.  You are always in the plans I make and it's just so hard to not have you here...laughing, smiling, making jokes about everything, calming me down with your "it's ok Mom, it's ok....it'll be alright".

Nessa was here Monday.  I didn't get to see her.  Dad and I were in Montgomery.  She goes back overseas on Monday.  She says she'll be home in about seven months.  Watch out for her baby..she's like mine too.  I love you sweetheart, and I miss you soooo much,  Can't wait to see you....Mom

Hey Dude, Tomorrow is mine and Dad's 24th anniversary and the next day you will have been gone for three long years.  I know that in Heaven it must seem like only a few minutes-but I have felt every single second that you have been gone.  I guess that it's a Mom-thing.  You have been on my mind alot lately.  I have relived that night over and over.  I know that there is nothing that I could have done to prevent your accident, but I think about things that I could have done differently.  I wish that I had given you a kiss that morning before you left for your first day of college.  I should have taken your picture the way that I did when you started kindergarten and the first day of your senior year.  Josh has started his senior year at Troy and we hope to see him playing baseball in the spring.  Ciara is officially a senior now.  She is so grown up.  You would be so proud of her.  Josh has his own plans for her when she graduates and goes o college.  Maybe you can help him out in that area.  I plan on taking her and her friends to the beach for a week ater graduation, just like I did for you and Josh.

She really tries to be mature and grown-up.  She does such a good job that I have to remind myself that she is only 17, and NOT grown-up.  She plans to go to ultrasound school after graduation and is very excited about it.  I just like to talk to you sometimes, doll, and I really miss you, and that wonderful smile.   Smile down on us and keep up with your brother and sis.  I love you, and miss you.  Mom

Austin....It is so hard sometimes to think that your really gone, but I know your looking down on us each and everyday.  Last week Tesha was killed, she and I were really good friends.  Just loosing her brought back the pain of when we lost you, it was so hard.  I just kept asking God why, because I know I dont fully understand why either.  I am now going back to church with my boyfriend Colby, he reminds me a lot of you.  I think about you often, and I go sit with you from time to time.  When we were younger we had a lot of fun with our  dads out in the fields riding 4 wheelers an gettin ready for hunting season, which i see your dad do a lot. I found a picture the other day of when we went fishing and you caught that fish without any bait, and I was so jealous that I couldnt do it.  But anyways, I hope you'll be looking in on me from time to time......Just one favor I need from you...Tell daddy i said i love you an i miss him!  Austin I miss you!  Cant wait to see you again!

Austin, Heaven is filling up with young people, isn't it? Teesha Lee went home to Heaven on Saturday night. She and Whitney Bailey were in a wreck and Teesha died.   Teesha broke her neck. Cortlyn said that they thought on impact. Whitney had surgery yesterday.  She broke her collar-bone and had to have a pin put in her femur.  It is so hard to see all these young people dying in car wrecks.  I went  to see Melinda, because I know how she feels.  I know that she'll forget that she's not coming home, and when it hits her, it'll be like it happened all over again.  She'll look at the clock on the weekends or when Teesha should be getting home from school or work and think "Teesha will be home in a little bit" and then she'll remember.  She'll relive that moment that she found out that her child was gone forever, over and over for days, months, and years.  You learn to deal with it, but the pain of losing a child never, ever goes away.  I miss you so much that it still physically hurts.  We all deal with missing you in different ways, but we all feel your absence with very heavy hearts.  Keep a watch over your brother and sister sweetheart.  We love you and can't wait to see you....Mom

Austin Kyle,  You hve been on my mind alot lately, even more than usual.  Amberli still talks about you all the time.  She has what we all call "an Austin  day" several times a month.  She knows that to see you in heaven she has to got to heaven too, so she says that she wants to go, and go NOW!  Shasta and I try to explain to her that she would have to die, and that God is control of that.  Shae can't go until it's the right time for her...she insists that she doesn't want to wait.  She says things sometimes that make us think that she sees you...I think tha she does.  The first time she said it was only a few months after you let us.  She was only two. When I asked her about it she just said, "I didn't say nothing".  The last time was just about a month ago.  If she really is seeing you, let her know that you'll seee her when the time is right, and to be patient,  she hears that from me all the time.  We m iss you sooo much.  I am trying to clean out your room.  Ciara now occupies al three rooms somewhat.  Her furniture is in your room, but her stuff is inn all three.  She is getting better though.  I guess she's growing up a little.  Josh has a trailor in Troy now.  His roommate is Lucas.  They are so much alike.. I think that Lucas is even more messy that Josh if you can imagine that>  He is alot like you though.  I think that's why I'm so close to him.  I wish that I could have told you all this in person, Bubba.  I miss you and love you forever.  Mom

Austin Kyle,

                 I guess it's just one of those days. I can't stop thinking about you. I try so hard to push you in the back of my mind so I won't get upset, but I'm quickly learning that you're not gonna let me and that it's okay to cry. I miss my best friend. No one will ever take your place. I'm moving into Joshua's room now. Closer to you. Mom is slowly trying to clean out your room and I don't see how she does it. I get so upset. I walked in your room this morning and the clock read 3:33. I know it was you reminding me that you were still there. I finally cut my loooong hair. lol. 8 inches off the back, 6 off the front. You'd like it I think. But I guess I'm gonna let ya go. I love you and miss you so much. See you soon.

                    "C"

Austin, Only 12 days until your 21st birthday.  It's unreal that you won't be sharing that with your brother.  We miss you terribly.  Josh moved to Troy Friday.  That was hard again.  It seems like he's always leaving.  He moved in with Lucas Davis.  They are very much alike yet different, like the two of you were.  I miss you so much sometimes that it physically hurts. My chest feels like it's gonna burst.  Ciara is working on moving into Josh's room.  I know that it's bigger than her room, but it's also a way to stay close to you both, I think.  She misses you so-so much too.  She is "boy" sitting Jordan and Christian this summer.  Amberli still askes about you all the time and wants to know when she can come to see you.  We jsut tell her that it is not time for her to see you yet, and thast God will decide when.  That doesn't keep her from telling us from time-to-time, "I see Austin!"  When we question her, she just says, "Oh, nothing."  We all miss you baby boy.  Can't wait to be with you.  Loving you, forever in my heart,  Mom

Hey Austin! I just found this page so its my first time being able to leave something! I just wanted to tell you how missed you realy are! I think about you all the time! Im in college now can you believe it! Troy is ok but i have admit it challenged me alot more than i expected! Ive decided to learn about airplanes now though and start to ozark this semester! I have not been to church in a long time i know everytime i walk in there i expect you to be tapping your watch and giving me that goofy smile and to tell you the truth not seeing that is always pretty hard but i know i cant run from it forever i just miss you so much! My secret is though i do go im pretty sure you know that i go just about every friday night and sit with you its soothing for some reason to sit there and talk to you almost like your here again slapping me on the back and telling me to get it right i never thought i would miss that so much but i do! I wish you were here though i always pictured you having a blast in college and being the star of the baseball team to boot but i know where you are now has to be a wonderful place and i know you make a great angel! I also know you will always be here in everyone's hearts believe me your memory will never die you are very loved and very missed! Love always

Hey Austin!! I'm sure y'all have already talked, but Haley came to join you Sunday... Losing her brought back a lot of sadness... I've thought about you and her all week...  I still dont understand why these things have to happen, and I always catch myself questioning God about it... I know he knows what is best and that he wont put us through more than we can handle, but he puts us through the tests, that's for sure... Just like with you, I was at the scene of Haley's accident when we found out that she didnt make it.... I got that terrible terrible feeling all over again.  It's just really tough... But anyways... I just wanted to come and talk to you... I figured it'd make me feel a little better.  I'll see you in my dreams... and bring Haley! I love you and I miss you everyday!

Tomorrow we will present 2 scholarships in your name to EOCC, to Joey and John Wayne.  I'm excited to be able to give someone else the college experience and memories that you never got to have.  Dad and I went to the funeral home today to visit with Haley's family. We really wanted them to know that they will survive the loss of their beautiful daughter.  Even though they will doubt it at times and certainly not want to survive it sometimes, they will.  They will appreciate the little things soo much more now.  We sure do. I remember telling Dad and then us talking to you about how much you had grown up over the summer...and then you were gone.  You were a joy Austin, and I miss you terribly.  Loving you 4ever...Mom